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 Right, so, tonight's the solstice, as well as a full moon and a total eclipse. Just my luck, I have a lulu of a head cold to get over. So, rather than hoof it out into the snow in the middle of Children of the Corn country (no, seriously, it was filmed right down the highway from here, if I'm lying, I'm flying), I decided to sit inside with the live streaming video and contemplate the moon and its darkest moment.

Now, in my personal traditions, there are four standard phases of the moon, maiden, warrior/temptress, mother, crone. And then, there's the eclipse, which to me, is the prophetess. I don't have a dark bone in my body, metaphysically speaking. Most of my patrons (saints, angels and deity faces) are fairly bright, or so I thought.

While I was watching the feed, I suddenly felt this tingling pressure in my head, one that comes and goes now. It doesn't feel sinus related. It's at the top and forward of my skull. I swore that, for a second I heard someone talking to me. I can't tell you what was really said, but it amounted to "the few who remember my name have forgotten that even gods can cast a shadow." 

I'm a little confused by what it might mean. I'm not a prophet or an oracle, I'm pretty sure. My gifts seem to want to be healing and cleansing, but am I missing something? Does anybody have any ideas? Or am I just addled by a stuffed nose?

Sorry if this doesn't make sense, I'm running on a lack of sleep at the moment.

Date: 2010-12-21 09:41 am (UTC)
mullenkamp: Osana Mullenkamp, Lady of the Dark (Default)
From: [personal profile] mullenkamp
My primary patron is the lady in my icon, who is associated with the elemental Dark, and I'm very much a Dark-oriented person in my spiritual practice, so I'll share the impressions I've been getting tonight. I fully apologize for going full woo on this, and I hope you get something out of it.

If you think of the Dark/Darkness as an element akin to the classical four (or five, if we're talking Eastern mysticism), it's especially potent tonight because of the eclipse falling on the longest period of darkness in the year. Traditionally speaking, the Winter Solstice marks the end of a period of darkness, and the triumphant return of the light. In Celtic traditions, there's the story of the Oak and Holly King. But similar ideas can be found in many cultures.

I don't see things quite as dualistically, but the impression I got tonight is the Dark is so potent right now that it's making its presence felt to people who may not necessarily work with it, or feel called to. For you, especially, balance may be needed. Very often, people who are called to healing paths will neglect darker energies, or their shadows, because so much of the "stuff" around healing is Light-based. It can be scary and intimidating. Even in Pagan paths, which generally don't associate Light and Dark with value judgments, that cultural meme is still very present, and a lot of people end up just giving lip service to the idea of balance, while still very much focusing on Light energies.

I don't know how into astrology you are, but this article I read the other day talks a lot about this convergence of energies, and for the potential of darkness being healing. I don't want to be all presumptuous or anything, but my gut reaction to that message you received is that you might want to consider some shadow work if you haven't in the past. It doesn't necessarily mean that you have to work with the Dark, or with cthonic or Darker-oriented deities (even the Christian God has a shadow side). It's just simply that, well, to borrow an old Wiccan adage, the witch who cannot hex cannot heal. Sometimes, in order to cleanse something, we have to cut it completely out; think of radiation treatment for cancer, or amputations to stop infections.

In a variety of indigenous traditions, a shaman didn't truly become a healer until s/he "wrestled" that Shadow within. And Chiron, the astrological body associated with the Wounded Healer archetype, is currently in sextile with Mercury and Neptune. The energy this brings is very conducive to opening yourself to new ideas and particularly paradigms of healing. Is there something in your life holding you back from your potential as a healer? Eclipses can be powerful times for banishings and letting go of things. This is the sort of thing, if you're at all into divination of some kind, that you might want to do/get a reading about. I hope I wasn't just talking out of my ass and that this is helpful in some small way.

Date: 2010-12-21 10:42 am (UTC)
mullenkamp: Osana Mullenkamp, Lady of the Dark (Default)
From: [personal profile] mullenkamp
I get what you mean about being worried about losing your "role" as it were. Recently I've come to terms with being poked at by Isis for quite a while, which sort of floored me because I'm very much a Dark-centered person in my practice. I think on a certain level I was afraid that choosing to explore working with her would mean I would lose my identity. I'm still admittedly struggling with this, but I've gotten the message that it wouldn't fundamentally change what I do, just expand on it a bit, and even potentially make me a bit better at it.

I think the lesson in this, at least that I've found for myself, is that even for those of us who naturally lean toward one or the other, it's kind of bad juju to ignore that other half for too long.

Meditating will probably help, as long as you remember to keep grounded and centered. It might even help you feel a bit better, being a stress relief at the very least.

Date: 2010-12-21 11:54 pm (UTC)
mullenkamp: Osana Mullenkamp, Lady of the Dark (Default)
From: [personal profile] mullenkamp
It's a really hard thing to learn for most people, I think. Even if you have a natural inclination for it--it's just not the sort of thing that's encouraged for the most part. The information out there is decidedly lopsided. What little I've found that was specifically geared toward it is generally little more than useless fluff (ie anything by Konstantinos), and in "regular" books, there's usually just warnings to stay away from such-and-such deity because they're not for the faint of heart. It's pretty frustrating.

I've basically had to patch it together on my own, and while it's difficult, I think I'm better for it in the long run. Knowing how to "wing it" has been pretty valuable to me. It's just not the sort of thing I can teach, though; sometimes I feel like I'm a Reconstructionist of a religion that never actually existed here.

Date: 2010-12-22 04:18 am (UTC)
brock_tn: (Blood)
From: [personal profile] brock_tn
It's a lot easier, too, if you've lived a life that has already forced you to come to terms with your own "dark" aspects.

Although, to be honest, when a lot of people talk about "dark" stuff, what they really mean is "anything I don't think I'm prepared to deal with right now."

The ugly secret / mystery is that it's really just another part of being human.

Date: 2010-12-22 11:46 pm (UTC)
brock_tn: (Default)
From: [personal profile] brock_tn
And some times, it's the fact that we develop these connections to divinities that we did not seek out on our own that force us to confront those parts of us we've been unable to face heretofore.

Understand this, though: the iron does not love the anvil.

Date: 2010-12-21 02:01 pm (UTC)
akatonbo: a red dragonfly on... concrete, maybe? (Default)
From: [personal profile] akatonbo
Oh, wow, that was confusing -- you have the username here that my partner used on LJ, so seeing your reply was very disorienting for a moment there! ;)

Date: 2010-12-22 12:18 am (UTC)
akatonbo: a red dragonfly on... concrete, maybe? (Default)
From: [personal profile] akatonbo
[personal profile] mullenkamp is the one who shares a username with my partner. :)

Date: 2010-12-21 11:28 pm (UTC)
mullenkamp: Osana Mullenkamp, Lady of the Dark (Default)
From: [personal profile] mullenkamp
I...get that a lot, over here. XD;

Date: 2010-12-22 12:45 am (UTC)
akatonbo: a red dragonfly on... concrete, maybe? (Default)
From: [personal profile] akatonbo
Yeah, it's probably the name the largest number of people know her by, on account of happening to have been her username in the place that the largest number of people know her from. (And also the fact that she's never too far away from doing something else Vagrant Story-related or Ivalice-related.)

Date: 2010-12-22 01:18 am (UTC)
pantswarrior: Laguna scratches his head. (huh?)
From: [personal profile] pantswarrior
Heh, sorry? Oddly enough, over at LJ, I kept getting called "Mullencamp" or "Mellencamp". :P

Haven't made a new account anywhere with that name for many years, either, so I'm kind of baffled. Uh, maybe I'll put up a PSA at the now-empty LJ - "The mullenkamp on DW is not me."

Date: 2010-12-21 12:44 pm (UTC)
siliconshaman: (Face of Evil)
From: [personal profile] siliconshaman
I think goddesses talk to whom, or through whom, they choose.

Either way, life is all about balance, light & dark.


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